I have started and stopped this blog entry so many times you would laugh at me.
If you are ready to get to know the very human side of me…then keep reading.
Doing a “Best Body Challenge” is always a good idea. After spending my 20’s teaching fitness and never having to worry too much about what I eat, and then my early 30’s traveling around Central America, I entered the crazy world of finally growing up and getting a real job. Of course my real job would be to take my health and fitness passion to the next level of running my own business, which ironically, got me a little stressed out and sick!
What Happened???
Well, in order to get to the bottom of this…lets rewind to the beginning. Last December I made a bold move to start video taping my workouts, my meals, and my life to let you follow along on my very own quest for my ‘best body’.
Truth be told…it was fun! I enjoyed sharing with you my successes and struggles. Last summer was my first year (welll..6 months) to really take my passion for health and fitness and turn it into the vision I have for my business, and it was a roller coaster ride for sure!
But…
Nothing can compare to the whirl-wind I’ve experienced in 2010. This will be my first full year of creating this fun fitness and nutrition business and to put it as nicely as possible, I have learned almost all my lessons the hard way.
Having fun teaching Boot Camp in Vasona
You see, I am a seeker. I am always striving to make my life more useful and meaningful. I sometimes desperately want to break out of whatever bondage that I perceive to hold me back. And this year for me, that has meant taking my business, and thus my life, to the next level, because as any budding entrepreneur knows, they are so intricately connected.
So I always have these grand visions for my life.
But then guess what happens?
You got it. I GET IN MY OWN WAY!
Can anyone else relate to this? All my old patterns of thinking I’m not good enough, or that I don’t deserve this or that come rolling in and create a storm.
For me personally, it seems that nothing comes easily (except maybe kicking your booty at boot camp…).
I don’t mean that in a “feel sorry for me way”. But seriously… for me to change and grow as a person (which I so desperately want) is like trying to pull out my own wisdom teeth with a set of pliers. First I just don’t want to do it, but then I force myself into situations where I absolutely HAVE to…and it really, really, really hurts.
OUCH!!!! When will I learn???
I kick and scream the whole way giving every excuse NOT to do it…. and then when it’s all said and done (and the wisdom teeth are finally out), it’s all good, I’m in a better place, and when I look back, I’m not sure why I didn’t think to just call the dentist to do it for me in the first place.
Another lesson learned the hard way.
If there’s one thing I’ve learned about myself that I am very certain of, it’s that the only way I have ever bettered myself or my situation in life is to put myself in a position where I absolutely HAVE to do it.
Teaching exercise is a great example I love to share with people. All through my 20’s I taught a ton of group exercise. You know…the Jane Fonda hi-low step aerobics stuff. Besides loving it, what I learned from this experience is that no matter what… I HAD to exercise. If I didn’t show up, there was no class, and ‘not showing up’ was NOT an option. So I did it. In the middle of finals at school I would have to put the books away to go teach my class. When I was going through a break-up (as I so often did in my 20’s), I still had to show up. When my grandfather died, and the last thing I wanted to do was show up to teach a spin class, I still did it.
If I put myself in a position where I HAVE to show up, this is how I change my life. I will punch, scream, and do it the long and hard way, but up till now, it seems to be how I function.
Now…little did I know that I would have to learn that lesson all over again.
Finally deciding to start my own business and jump blindly in head first is typical of my personality, but seriously…I had no idea what I was in for.
Just the organization process alone is enough to make me want to cry. Little did I know that starting a FITNESS business would have me sitting on my BUTT all day long and into the night. Work started at 5 or 6am, flowed into the evenings, and then easily through the weekends.
Where did my balance go?
And forget balance…where the hell did my Best Body Challenge go??? How did this happen?

Hey...we should try this one in boot camp with the medicine balls!

Hey...we should try this one in boot camp with the medicine balls!
Needless to say, I’ve had to do some serious re-evaluation of my life and the type lifestyle I want to live. While I do believe I spent most of my 20’s screwing around preferring to go on snowboarding and rock climbing trips rather than prepare for and better my future, I don’t think the right answer is a straight 180 in the other direction of ‘sit on my butt and use my brain (and computer) all day with now connection to my body’.
So not only did “my best body challenge” go out the window with the plethora of work required to get my own business off the ground, but I felt as though my health flew right behind, too.












